i tried my very best not to think..
i tried not to show how much im hurting inside.
bt then there were times i juz cudnt hide those feelings.
i cried alot.. i laughed alot..
and it was all just because of u...

i don't dare ask for more..
because these moments meant so much to me..
i wudn't wana destroy it..
i rather keep myself in silence...
and enjoy every moment tat im with you..
before the day u walk out of my life for good..

i still rmb those kisses..
i still rmb those laughters..
i still rmb those hugs...
i still rmb those lame jokes..
that we used to share together..

love is pain.. it is not a fun thing to do..
but then i loved the way you love me..
i know how much i needed you..
i know how much i wanted you..
i know how my world wud b without you..

im sorry i was being reckless..
im sorry i was being stupid..
im sorry i was alwiz careless...
im sorry i wasn't understanding enuff..
im sorry for not being PERFECT enuff..
im sorry for all these, but i juz cudn't get u out of my mind..

each day dat passes by..
i hope and wished upon a star..
that one day you will come back to me...
i wish dat we cud b together...
i know i was being selfish for having these thoughts..
LOVE, has alwiz been selfish..

each time when u're with me..
i wished tat time wud juz freeze..
i hope time wud go slower..
so that i cud c u longer...
when its alwiz time to bid farewell...
i alwiz cry inside cause i still haven't had enuff..

im sorry if i ever did anything wrong..
im sorry that i never let u know how i felt..
im sorry for all those silly mistakes that i did..
im sorry that i wasn't the perfect one and might not be..
im sorry that i made u worry..
im sorry for everything...

even writing this i cried alot..
these words juz flow out so smoothly...
mayb its just sth dat alwiz had been in my heart..
i reali tried very hard to let you know..
i tried my very best to show you how much i love u..
i dun care how much pain im in..
i dun care how much tears i shed..
i dun care if i was ever happy...
you know how much i wanted you..


but nothing cud ever compares to how much happiness i felt..
JUST TO C U SMILE...

Its the last day of the year, and in less than 10hours a new year is born. we bid farewell to 2009 and welcome 2010 into the world. Well.. i hope everyone gained alot during 2009, i know i did bt still i do lost some as well..

sigh~
I do hope that i will have a good ending to 2009 and a new fresh happy beginning towards 2010.. i do hope all of u were the same as well.. happy and blessed new year to all my readers. wish u all the best of luck with loads of success and wealth coming ur way. Thank you for being with me throughout my ups and downs. =)

love u all..

2009 is coming to an end now, what hav u all achieved so far within this year. I know that i have achieved some things and lost some things as well.. Well! in life there must b a gain and a loss to make life balanced rite. Well i had let go of all my past and from tomorrow onwards i am a new person. New life, new beginning, new determination, new resolution as well as new Me♥.. I had learn a lot from the past that makes me wiser each day. Altho i am still not perfect and still at times repeat making the same mistakes, bt still non of them were purposely done.. I have had a great whole December with memories dat will lasts a lifetime, a great best buddy to stick by me at all times when i, feeling down, a loving parents and probably you♥.. What more could i ask for? i had almost everything dat a girl wud have wanted. Money is not reali dat important except when it comes to paying bills, daily expenses, feeding ur car with either 95 or 97 ( still prefer 95 cuz its cheaper and it makes no difference frm 97), or mayb when u wanted to buy dat LV bag.. hahaha.. oh mayb money might b important in life as well cuz nth in this world is FREE, for dats wad i know.. hahah... bt money is not important when is comes to happiness, cuz no money cus b able to buy u those priceless happiness.. ppl did told me, happiness is when u buy stuffs u like, yes i do agree on SOME part but not all.. den wad do u think abt this "does money ever buy u those so-called-happiness when u r diagnosed with disease that not even money cud ever cure u, or when u r breaking/divorcing with ur partner dat was caused because of money.. the lists will go on and on and on.. bt im juz lazy to list it down. Well, at times i do have my own financial problems which does give me a pain in the butt, but then i choose to live my life happily knowing tat tmrw might b my last. Well, i appreciate every single moment i had without hesitating doing things i like cause i never wanted to make myself regret when i looked back one day.. The only thing i did regret was not being able to provide a better living for my family. I was rebellious, playful and selfish while i was in my teens. I never ever cared about anyone else other den myself. i used to scold, curse and even steal.. all juz for the fun of grabbing attention. YESH! i am an attention seeker laz time.. i believe some of u who is reading this blog might also or been in my shoes before. But since i had changed, i believe that U can too.. All it needs was some experience and u will learn and grow up in no time.

Now for my brand new year in not more den 48 hours, i do wish dat i had a BF.. hahaha.. well since i knocked so hard on the floor pavement yst, i guess the wire is still kinda loose in my head..
so juz ignore this sentence.

Well, i did wana blog abt how much fun i had with the girls on 25th in Tao. but first and foremost i wud like to thank u all for the lovely prezzie.. i am using it now and i appreciate it vy much. Wad a smart idea of getting me a purse since im gonna b using it eviday, this will reminds me of u all. I do actually hope u all enjoyed the red wine and the night. It was kinda simple cuz i din actually planned out anything.. but i was reali hapi to have u all there. Thank u all for the great bday.

ok im getting more and more heavy while blogging, i wonder was it bcuz i juz had brunch or was it bcuz of the fall yst dat makes my head sot-sot at times. hahah.. well, it roughly abt 2mth's more before you will b leaving me. i wonder till then what is goin to happen.. i dare not think, i dare not ask, i dare not even dream abt it cause im scared. i am enjoying each and every moment i am having right now and its too beautiful if someone were to take it all away.. i duno y hav i fall so hard but then im happy as long as i know you are happy. ur smile is the onli things dat makes me meltzz♥♥♥♥ u might not b dat perfect to others but then i like u juz the way u r. Bear that in mind. You are alwiz perfect juz being urself.

okok here will my New Year resolution be..

1. Achieve a good result in my school and be the best student in whole M'sia to get at least that two title i have been aiming for.
2. Get a Bf, (in the midst) hahahahhaha♥
3. get bek to my ideal figure i had 2 yrs back. ♥
4. Earn more money so that i will be able to at least not worry about my financial.
5. Blog more.. hahahah
6. Do more for myself, Him and my family..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

wow.. it seems dat i have not been touching my blog for quite awhile now.. hahah.. so now gonna do some quickie updates.. im in a hunger mode now.. juz ate apples for dinner.. =.=!!

ok, so this is a post abt my bday celebration dat had juz passed. I had a splendid and reali memorable party dat day.. its not reali a party dat is made for me bt then it was an awesome party dat i cud say, amazing. i had early dinner on 24th at Tao's restaurant with my parents and a few others =).. We had a great time snapping pics and eat..eat...eat... tho i din reali eat alot.. ON DIET ma.. So my parents gave me the key necklace on dat day while my godbro gave me angpows lor..

After dinner i was supposed to meet a bunch of frens in HR dat nite bt ended up din go as frens din have a confirm answer as to wer thy were goin. So i went to UPR with Kent win while waiting for suesan.. Too bad nicole din came with us but the its a good thing she din came cuz we were like, went home super late and the next day she nits to work summore.. hahah. So when we reached it was kinda early still i guess cause thr were no traffic jams thr. We went to sega to hav a drink 1st while suesan took her time coming with the beloved so called Hiao Kang bro.. hahaah
den we were like chatting chatting chatting and camwhorming <-- as wad i did usually, chenchen called and ask wer was i.. after a few minutes thy appear in the toilet and gave me a cake.. how sweettttt... i was like so hapi cuz horrrr, ppl so wu sim.. gam dong lar.. hahah.. after dat when san reached we went to Mois.. Its packed and we hardly cud get in there.. bt luckily san met one of her frens dat bought us in. Then when we were inside we waited for table cuz all the tables were like full.. =.=!!!! bt surprised dat the club is not reali packed until like sardins..

while i was on tehe way inside i met sarah, hot mama dat i knew in starbucks.. on thing funny was we alwiz bump into each other no matter wer we go.. its like ady been more den 4 times ady.. i guess this is wad i called fate.. hahah

Afta dat san tiok hilang go to duno wer liao, so i remained thr with Hiao kang 1, Hiao kang 2 and ah boy. hahahha... u guys mz b wondering who is 1 and two.. come let mem introduce.. hiao kang 1 is our beloved shane koh while hiao kang 2 is no other den kent win.. hhaha.. wey~ this post is juz for fun nia arrr.. dun keep in ur heart arrr.. i guess when the liquor arrived on our table we took almost half hour to finish it all.. i drank like errrr.... 3 neat glass of dat liquor.. so tak sedap.. yuck!!!.. hahahah den afta dat of cuz time to dance liao lar... Met cat thr, my beloved dance partner.. used to dance sexy dance tgther laz time.. hahahaha.. she's still dat good..

met javon thr as well.. he was like so high.. ahahahhahahhah..

den after dat suak tiao.. (end ) so all go bek home.. hahahahahahah.. no more updates liao..
i malas mau write oso.. mayb see mood.. if good tmrw update more abt the next day mia gathering with the gals..

i cudnt bliv in one day i bcame the hot topic of the day.. hahahahahahah... notification full till inbox nit to delete.. =.=!! anyway love ya'll..





mishhhhh euuuuu... <3

Went to have my usual facial in gurney few days ago. It was supposed to be the last one ady but bought another package for maintain purpose. Acne is still not really cleared fully, so i guess another few times shud do the trick ba.. if not im reali gonna cry d.. After facial guess wad my parents did, thy brought me my bday gift, and to mark my 21st bday this year.. thy bought me a key necklace with a love design on it.. its not cheap but then i really love it. This is my 1st burffdae prezzie from my parents and mum said she'll keep till its my actual date onli den she'll giv it to me.. Wasn't able to take pics of the necklace tho, bt nvm lar... will post it after my bday. Nth special to other ppl bt then its a token of love frm them to me.. so it meant alot to me.

Well, im on a strict diet now, means no rice, no-flour contained foods, no junk foods... STRICT NO NO for about a mth... i am only allowed to take lean meats, lotsa vege's, fruits.. Dat's all.. Bt for the time being b4 my bday i got another extreme kinda diet.. My secret ingredient...shhhh~ i hope by doing dat it works.. i've been doin serious workouts these few days as well.. hope all these will turn to be good results for me.. i've been working reali hard to achieve this.. pls dun fail me..


Seems dat most ppl are on holidays now, and im stuck at home.. bt well, its good too as i dun reali have the mood to go out as well... i juz feel like lazy-ing on the bed the whole day.. starring at the computer.. doing absolutely nth except workouts.. dats all.. even with my bday ard the corner, i have no mood at all to celebrate it.. i do have a list of wishes tat hoped to be granted this year, but hopefully Santa would be kind enuff to grant them for me.. i've been a very good gal this year.. so pretty puleezeeee Santa..

My brain is not functioning well these few weeks.. its going haywire and the screw is getting loose.. HaiLat lorrrrr~
im writing this blog in a half conscious state.. cuz i'm sick at the moment.. my eyes are almost closing now bt his face is clearly in my mind now.. i miss him so much as days goes by.. i can't seem to get him out of my mind and i can't forget him. y does it have to be so hard.. bt im still hoping for the best to happen.. im still waiting~ and will keep on...

counting till xmas ~ 7 days

days b4 the end ~ 62 days... =(

9 more days to go till xmas.
But al of a sudden i didn't really feel the excitement, its like sth's missing.

Getting tired while waiting… (U know?)
Gotten tired while waiting and~
U Know, do you know how I feel?
Gotten tired while waiting~
Do you still remember me? (Oh~ no)
Even if a day goes by, I'll still remember you
Even if a month goes by, I still won't let you go
Can you understand my desires for you? (oh~no)
Going insane while waiting
and each day feels like a year.
Oh~ I, I I I~ was waiting and while I was waiting,( yeah~)
It felt as if you would come back
or if I look back I would see your face

Oh~ I I I I~ am going insane, going insane (yeah~)
I am holding back just in case you come back, (oh yeah~ )
I am still waiting (oh yea~)
Even if a month goes by, I'll still remember you.
Even if a year goes by, I still won't let you go
Can you understand my desires for you? (oh~no)
Going insane while waiting
and each day feels like a year.
Oh~ I, I I I~ was waiting and while I was waiting
It felt as if you would come back
or if I look back I would see your face
Oh~ I I I I~ am going insane, going insane (yeah~)

Why is it so hard
and everything's so complicated in my head.
I was waiting and waiting
and yet no answers from you
I didn't cry because of you
and you didn't leave because of me
So why is it so hard, why is it so hard?

I will wait for a year
or even a decade if I have to.
Oh~ I I I I I I I I will wait and it's fine if tire myself out.
Going insane while waiting
and each day feels like a year.
Oh~ I, I I I~ was waiting and while I was waiting
It felt as if you would come back
or if I look back I would see your face
Oh~ I I I I~ am going insane, going insane (yeah~)

my face is red and im down with slight fever..

these few days i've been having insomnia. can't sleep well, kept on thinking abt alot of stuffs.. my body is tearing apart yet my mind is still so wide awake.. i'll be starting my course next january ard 4th but due to insufficient place fr me and a student so our class is only 2days a wekk till march.. and frm monday till friday will b off and sat and sun will b d day we're having class... so im planning to take part time job to at least lower my burden for the moment.. i got too much to do and i need income coming in as well. xmas is coming d and i hav yet to plan out anything.. for this special day of mine, i dun reali wana clbrt with anyone excpt one particular person. but still the more the merrier rite.. heheheh...


been into korean songs lately, influence by si lang kent.. hahah..


but seriously its reali nice, even if u search in youtube, you'll love it cause of the meaning. i dun know abt those ppl out thr but then at times i feel the meaning in most of the songs xplains the feelings in my heart.. probably diz is y i love these songs.

well i guess blogging to me nowadays has been more like a personal journal for me to express my feelings.. bt still whenever thr's other things to blog abt im sure to blog abt it oso..

past few days old illness visited me again.. yea, the kind which reali likes to let u feel wad hell is abt kinda illness.. its back... argggghhh~ hate nia. i've been listening to the same song for the past few days while having a kinda sad feelings inside. i wan to find someone to talk to but i dun think anyone will b able to understand, so i guess keeping it inside is the best choice.. no matter how, at least im still smiling for those ppl i love.. u knw lar, girls pandai emo wan lar.. bt i guess im good in hiding my feelings cuz i dun think any1 realized it, except for nicole.. cilaka nia! all oso knw wan...

its not easy to put on a mask infront of everyone, its not easy to tell ppl u're ok while ure not and definitely its not easy to find a shoulder to lean on for u to weep. bt at least i can b hapi whenever i told myself, 'there's still hope'. i've been relying on the word 'hope' all this while.. 'hope' is wad keeps me strong for these two month's.

but, i smile whenever i see u smile. =)

Its the 9th day of December.

These past few days, been having gastric attacks and kinda serious ones but still not as serious as the one i had previously dat had me admitted to the hospital. Been on medication these few days dat made me weak and face turn pale. Luckily got makeup to cover it up. hehehehe... had fever on and off. but shud b ok in a few days more d.. cuz the pain is not dat severe d.


how can i find that answer to my question and how can i stand up from the fall i had? does crying helps you to release your emotion? does acting silly cover your tears? does lying to urself helps u to feel better?

i did try to choose to live life more happily. but how come sth is missing. =(

Its the 6th day of December, holiday season now. Everywhere i go thy joy of x'mas fills me up. The decorations, the songs and even the foods that could only be found during x'mas is out. X'mas this year has been abit slow for me. Or its has been like this for the past few years. How is everyone doin and wad is your new year's resolution for the year 2010. I sure had mine planned out nicely. Well, will share it here at the end of the post MAYB! hehehe.. So mayb you could share yours with me 1st. =)

My birthday is just ard the corner but i din quite feel the excitement altho im goin to b officially 21 this year. I felt that i had waste alot of my time this doin sth dat is absolutely goin no wer. Bt at least my mind is aware now and im goin the correct path now. Did sth stupid and silly today. Ok, well it was silly but at least i wud b stupid not doing it. Nicole was trying to slap me back to reality just now.. i was like laughing and laughing and laughing.. She did ask me wad's my plan for my birthday, seriously i gave her a dumb folded face and said i dun know. She is someone i wud say, understands me well and she knw wad's on my mind. Did told her if she duno wad i need, want and thinking im gonna downgrade her bff's position to normal friend position... we laughed.

Well, i gotta look things at the bright side too once in a while. Im trying to keep my mind in reality now cause i've been trying to make life as a fairy tale these few days.. sucks rite.. hahahah i knw.


i've been not feeling well these two days due to serious gastric problem.. Had late lunch yst and boy, the late was really pretty late. I am still feeling the dizziness and the pain in the abdomen.. Din tell my parents tho cuz the last time of the attack i was being hospitalized for a whole week. =.=!! I am taking med now, and im feeling much better compared to yst altho its still not fully recovered.

Nicole asked me to come along to kl a few days b4 my birthday. I still dun knw if i could make it? budget is a problem as well as birthday is ard the corner and i bet i will b spending some amount tho. Birthday this year will be as quiet as the past few years. i wonder if my wish wud came true this year.

Am i someone who is dat bad? yea, from the look of my record, i guess its quite bad. Bt, at least im no longer looking to b like who i am back in the past. I guess i need to thank Asaph for this. He thought me alot about life as well and he is the one who made me realize dat i need a purpose in life. Well i had everything in order now, almost perfect except one thing is missing.

well, like miley cyrus's the climb im feeling sth like this lyrics here

hey, im back blogging again and the good news is im not going Ipoh anymore cuz i'll be staying here to continue my course instead.. yippieee =) (common let's celebrate, celebrate.. yuhoooo)

Ok, now for my 1st thing that i need to do before 2010. Loose 10kg's. I tell u it ain't gonna be easy u knw.. gaining weight is goin to be a piece of cake but not when u wana loose them. But, i bet with someone to loose by then.. so Be it!!! heheh..




Some of u might wonder y my post title is as wad above is, cause actually i am a shouter myself and its kinda sad to see more and more ppl left shoutout cuz thy no longer thinks its fun anymore. Most of those people that was in shoutout is bloggers themselves. Hehehe, someone did ask me before why i still stayed, its actually very simple, cause i actually feel that shoutout is not like any other common chat room wud be. They feel like a family to me. Shoutout has different shouters from across whole M'sia and not forgetting there are shouters from different countries as well. Well, ever since i became a shouter i did c alot of changes being done here and there, and its goin to be sad to see shoutout to go ( KabOosh!! ) because tak ada traffik.. hahaha

well honestly, because of shoutout i did made alot of friends from different states, different races and different perspective, not to mention different AGE.. for a person like me, i hardly make friends cause mayb people dun reali like me dat much. But shouters dun care who the hell u might be, they juz accept u for who u are.. Altho there are shouters who beh syok here and thr but its doesnt onli happen here lar, outside oso can happen lar.. But i still stayed with shoutout cause i feel happy talking to them..you knw shoutout is no ordinary chatroom, its actually cool for people who likes to interact, but at times i'll just lurk ard and c wad thy're chatting on. thr's PIC's comment oso available now and the current hottest topics in shoutout are GAMES!! Guy's.... haihzzzz!! tho i loves games but then i dun think im dat crazy over them, so tak ngam topic.. hahahaha... but wud love if i can join them in their game.. hahahahah.. looks fun. well!! Sounds fun...


Shoutout has alot of different types of ppl, there are IT genius, fashion freak, emo shouters, photo kaki's and alot alot more.. u name it yourself. But sadly alot of these people no longer has the interest to shout anymore, and thy left one by one. Some cuz found new website d, some working and no time and some other reasons lar.. Still there are shouters that are still there till now. And thy are the active ones..

Well!! i missed alot of the gatherings tho, but due to insufficient members, we cant really organize SOYEG 2009 this year. Sad... =(

Well... whether you have the same opinion about shoutout as me, you be the judge. Honestly, i feel shoutout can be the best group of friends i known. *better ask lasker to organize more gatherings.. hehehe.



(this is a personal post, not advertising purpose...) hehehhehe =) byeeee

Ohhhh Ohhhh
In the heaRt
Of the night
When it's dark
In the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor
Ohhhh Ohhhh

I looked down
And my shirt's turning red
I'm spinning around
Felt her lips on my neck
And her voice in my ear
Like I missed you
want you tonight

Chorus:
Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

Thought I moved
More than on
Thought I could
Fool her charm
I really wanna go
But I can't leave her alone
Ohhhh Ohhhh

Hear the sound
Of a love so loud
I just can't, I just can't
Ignore this feeling
Said she misses me
And she wants me
Wants me tonight

Chorus:
Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

In the heart
Of the night
When its dark
In the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor
Ohhhh Ohhhh

Chorus:
Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

i feel like privatizing my blog.. i feel that i dun really have privacy whenever i blog. I've been having a shit hell of a time, messed up in emotion as well. I don't feel like im someone i used to know. I don't feel happy and i feel like a prisoner in my own world. Friends asked me if i was happy with the way i am now, i pause and was wordless. I don't know how to answer them. The only thing running in my mind till now is, 'AM i HAppy?'.


I've been coming to Starbucks everyday, surfing the net everyday and the only thing i feel im comfortable with is surfing the net and blog. But i couldn't really blog about almost anything cause my blog is a public blog. Last time i did thought of making my blog, well at least famous but now this blog has become more of a personal journal to me.

I actually wanted to live in a world of my own, i feel its more comfortable this way. I haven't been sleeping really well cause i have alot of problems which is troubling me and its only me dat could actually solve this problems. I don't want to tell or being questioned for what is wrong with me as it would stir up my temper.


i dun know wad to doooooo

Am i loosing on Hope or am i loosing on feelings. I can't really made up my mind about certain decisions. I have thoughts that has been bugging me for quite some time already. Or to be certain those kind of feelings that has been kept inside me. Something juz struck my mind moments ago, it was not really some Thing, it was more of a person.

My mind is loosing its patience. . . .

I'm loosing focus, I'm loosing the feelings i once had. Now its a mixed up feelings.

errrr.... my mind is like " . . . . . . . "

im gonna be away from technology world again and most probably wont be here everyday facebooking and 'shouting'... OH my god im gonna miss all these so much... even if i get to be on9 it would oso be like once in a while... =.=!!

anyway, my birthday is just around the corner.. another 1more month to go... i dun reali knw wad's planned out and i dun even knw if i wud b celebrating or not. neway some of my girls did say that its a Bachelorette nite out on my day.. so probably i might be having two different events.. one with family and one just for friends. hehehe... A Fat pig will b flying from Aussie.. so gotta catch up with him And one more gorgeous lady from Sarawak. hahahahahha..

I successfully registered in Clara ady is a packed 1yr LONGGGGgggg course whereby sat and sun's at times its offday, off on some P.H.. But X'mas its definitely OFF.

oh yea, im like so in LUV with this poladroid effects... See how niceeee pics can bcm..


Btw.. CHIN MEI MEI happie 21st birthday. 'dai gor lui lor, yu sang sang seng seng zou yan ooooo'.. Its been like years since we saw each other... i think the last time was back in Disted horrr.. den u left to go Kdu den i oso left to go kayelle.. dats when we all lost contach with each other... Now im bek in penang and u're already moved to JB.. =.=!!!

Neverthe less. i still wish u all the best in ur career, ur studies, family and ur love life.. hehehe Cute bf u got thr.. hahahaha.. But most importantly, food luck in ur future undertakings.. Dun forget when u come bek here Must call me out u knw.. Well im in Ipoh dat time oso.. hahahah.


~gosh i duno wad to write liao, im gonna miss Shoutout the most.. its like 2nd family.. wuwuwu~
when gonna hav gathering like this again.. =.=!!! (LASKER mari bergathering )

today im not really doing any updating. just some random posts that's all. Yup im in starbucks again, drinking my Fav classic chocolate. Taste different from previously method of doing it. Heard from suesan dat wen's uncle juz passed away peacefully after a period of fighting with cancer. I hope that wen will be able to stay strong despite circumstances. Juz like her to knw that everyone is here for her.


sigh~ its so boring. i juz came back from facial treatment as usual in Gurney. Had dinner with parents just now in Tao's and after that lepak in Starbucks for a while. Its goin to rain soon. I also gotta leave because i did not bring my specs out today. So clumsy of me. so now im having a lil blurry vision while driving. so gotta be extra careful.

While i was otw back frm penang to oto CT, a myvi juz HAD to race with me. i did not knw he wanted to race until he actually tried to hit my car (not actually hit juz imitating), so i got furious and chased dat car... we were practically racing till we went on separate ways after reaching B'worth. But my car is safe to race cuz i just got my wheel balanced and alignment done.

P.s : i got scolded by my bf for racing just now... =.=!!!

but then.. racing was kinda fun.. hahahahhahaa.. bt its really dangerous cuz a slip of a finger and u wud have been dead.. So dun race..

at time i just dun understand, with tat kind of height u expect to b voted miss. u gotta b kidding. u might have the sweet innocent looks but u surely aint anyone. Dun pretend to b a miss Congeniality while u have a bad character. Hey if u think u have the brains u shud b doing charity instead of going into pagent and did nth for the charity. Use ur looks to get some funds flowing for the unfortunate, and mayb then ppl will rmb u as someone. U're alwiz competiting in all those ridiculous pagents bt din win anything.. my god!!!

Notice the date, it looks almost like the 9/11 date rite. Today i've been sitting in my dad's office as usual but at least it should be better then staying home alone and wasting money by going outside on9-ing in cafe's whereas internet here is totally free and only i have the access to it.

Today is as usual a boring day for me. I felt like a handicapped people when im not working or doing anything except eat, sleep and surfing the net everyday. Gosh!! i wish tat time will fly by fast so i can go and start my studies and end faster for me to be able to come out and work again. Dun feel really comfortable tho without working. No income coming in means no expenses that can go out. =.=!! I still have some leftovers in the bank tho luckily. Afta paying for school and other 'chaplang' stuffs im not left with much but still thr is some lar. I can feel the pressure of competing once again. I love having loads of challenges cuz my brain tends to wear off when i dun often use it for thinking. U knw when u dun really use ur brain for thinking u tend to get more and more dumb. Dat's wad i feel ler.

Today my body feel really restless eventho i get 8hrs of sleep. I woke up feeling a huge burden on my head dat makes me almost fell on the floor, leg was so weak and my eyes could hardly open. Well! i really do hope that in time to come i will b able to keep myself buzy with school, music and church. Oh!!! not forgetting my photography. I'm gonna brush up on that.

Ok now wad's missing in my list.. Let me list down and see which one is still missing since 2007 until today.

• Lappie
• Mp3 player
• Cam kit lens / flash
• Polaroid choco

Today is a Saturday, nth much to do so i was goofing around in Starbucks as usual cause internet at home was not able to connect. Sth wrong with Streamyx or the port probably so there were alot of times especially at night the internet weren't able to connect. So today i was at the same place, ordering the same favorite drink and sitting down blogging. Well the weather over here i pretty hot at the moment. Sun is blazing and shinning brightly. No signs of raining anytime soon at the moment.


Sitting in front of me now is a lady with her kid a cute boy. The mum asked if she could sit at the same place as me as i was alone and plus i was sitting at a comfortable sofa seats. So i told them to go ahead and sit with me. The lady, all of a sudden asked me if i were the same girl sitting here last night. so i said i was and she told me that she were here also yst and that she were sitting outside with a bunch of friends and one of her friend asked her to check me out =.=! cuz he thinks dat im HOT! and then dat lady were telling me when they passed by the mirror outside the place im sitting the lady's friend said 'there, there, this hot chick. Check her out'. Then this lady said that she will definately tell her 'dat friend' that she is sitting in front of me now.. HAHAHA!! i told her to send my appreciation in his compliment.. Well!! its a courtesy to say thank you if someone gives u a compliment rite?


I can't stop wondering and thinking abt the plans that I'm about to carry out. I have alot to accomplish in a very short period of time. But by God's grace im sure that i'll definitely achieve all of them. Seems like everyone is either busy with work, or shopping today and im the only one that is too free to actually sit around here and blog.. But hey!! if not for blogging i dun think thr's anyting more that i could do. Parents went to work early in the morning ady and internet is not accessible at home, so i rather waste my time here blogging and enjoy the environment at Starbucks.

Im daydreaming the day while listening to my fav blues and jazzz.... (LUMzzzZZzz mode)

I'm here stranded in Starbucks for internet cuz i cant have internet connections at home. Sucks!!! And having alot of thoughts in my mind now. My life seems to be having sth that is holding me back in doing alot of things. I stare out of hte window to actually see a reflection of myself on the window. When i look at myself i see nth. I'm supposed to see sth great in me, sth which will reflect someone great, someone who is a strong and someone who is walking the path to success, but all i see now is someone who is lost, someone who doesn't seems to be happy with who she is now. I am not sure what is causing me this. Perhaps when i figure out the root that is causing this i might actually be able to find light in my life once again. I prayed to the Lord and i did actually got alot of feedbacks for all of them. Some which im still figuring out if that is wad The Lord actually wants in my life and some i have started doing ady.


I had accepted Christ into my life a few mth's ago and life has been really great after that. I learnt alot on being a christian and i will never stop learning. I have learnt to be more patient (proven), and forgive n forget. just as written in the scriptures.

If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just (true to His own nature and promises) and will forgive our sins [dismiss our lawlessness] and [continuously] cleanse us from all unrighteousness [everything not in conformity to His will in purpose, thought, and action].
1 John 1: 9


I have quit from drinking, from clubbing and smoking. Praise the Lord for his power. I did all this not by my own bt with His strength.

Colossians 3:17 – "And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."

today is a very moody weather.. its been raining whole day until now, its still droplets of rain. But i love this kind of weather cause it makes the place more cooling. I've been wanting these kinda weather since duno how many month's ago and now its finally raining season d. so good.

i have been camwhorming alot in the room few days back.. Hahahah!! let u see mayb one of the pics.. hahaha


This pic makes me look.. erm.... i duno.. probably someone could say sth.. hahahaha

Dat day on the 2nd, Parkson Grand is having its 22nd anniversary and whoever is a Parkson Grand Member as well as Bonuslink Card holder gets to enjoy 22times of points. Me and my parents went to Gurney straight after their work cuz mum needs to buy a Sanuk shoe that is a creation of a doctor hich is proven effective in healing those patients with problematic legs (posture oso can). So mum asked me to buy one also since im having some problems with my leg oso. So i bought one oso.. Its not really fashionable type of shoes tho but its good for the legs and alot of testimonies has proven that it really works.
*the shoe is called 'FitFloop'.These shoes are specially made to fit ur feet and u cant buy anything dat doesn't suit ur feet as well. if u're a size 6 u need to wear size 6. nth more or less than that.

So cuz its 22times of points that can be collected, i 'sun bian' went for shopping spree oso lar. Bought quite a number of good stuffs oso lor dat day. Such as my beautiful bag. From Giamax. Altho i never reali heard of it but then i googledit and found out that it is actually a local designers item. that has 38 years of legacy as well. Not bad for a bag. but its not bad as well. This bag is on a 70% discount so i was not hesistate to buy it.. Oh! and yea mum bought one too.. heheh

*this is mine and mum one's are as below. hahahahaha... This looks quite elegant so i juz grab it without a 2nd thought.


So me and my parents went shopping and grab a few household items as well. But we spent everything plus dad's things and household items and plus with our 'barang-barang' almst to 1.4k. but then everything is worth buying on that particular day cause everything u buy is on 22times points and this means 1k equals to 22,ooo of points oso... hahahahahahahahahhah. Dat day is our family's happiest day as its been years since we buy sth so happily.

Oh yea. my luggage which i bought it at very very cheap price. its really worthwhile. So dat day it also helped and served me alot. cause all shopping items i juz put it into the luggage. The most heaviest lappie oso into the luggage. So convenient.. hahahahah....

So if anyone missed the members day that day, too bad for u cuz the 22times of points is only for that specific day. Oh yea forgot with anything u purchase RM150 and above u are entitles for a RM10 voucher. But now u can only get the voucher's i think for cosmetic purchases only and no more for apparels ady... Too bad cuz dat day is really a vy vy good time for u to purchase everything till CNY oso.. even year end sales might not be this good.. hahahha

Anyway this is the end of my shopping spree post for today.. till then.. love u all who is reading this.. =) hope u enjoyed it

today is the 6th d and now only im starting to blog abt things that happened probably a week ago.. hahahah... been going out and having vy good food alot since i came back to Penang and been putting on alot of excessive weight. HAHAH~

have been to my friend's birthday party a week ago.. Wow~ the size of her house is darn big.. hahah. never knew tat she moved ady till i was invited to her 21st party.. hahah. btw here's a Hapie 21st Burffdae to my beloved Yik chuen aka pikachu (nickname) during high school days.. hahahahha

Let's wish her hapie 21st buffdae.. hahah i mean Belated 21st buffdae.. hahahahah. She had two Siberian husky in her house.. man dat's so cuteeeee.. i love Siberian huskies!! Dat nite i went quite late tho. but still i had loads of fun.. meeting friends dat is like haven't met for ages.. and epecially Missy Feng dat lose alot in her weight. (Almost din recognize her) hahahah.. she is almost perfect if she knw hw to dress up.. hahahah... well!! here's the pics fr most of the events day nite. all unedited cuz i still havent buy the editing software yet.. heheh~

This is the consequences of being late for a party. So YC and Joe decided to punish Serena by crowning her the Honour of being 'Birthday Princess' .. See her face.. so GAM DONG!! So as a morale of this story, don't ever be late for a party, especially a good friends one if u dun wana end up being in a spotlight.. HAHAHAHA.

This is the crowning glory of a Princess dat eventually got on my head.. hahahah.. Well!! since alot of ppl knw me by the nickname PrincessV.
4 vy close, BISING, SIAO and Kapsiao friends of mine. so far yet so close. ~heaps




~ this is two of my fellow CBW-ians.
Family picture of all of us.. plus a few tat has ady gone bk so no pics ~sob,sob... But this is the loudest and craziest gang in CBW batch 2005. We'll miss u all and friends 4eva.

Synopsis:

A collection of five horror stories, from the studio that made SHUTTER, DORM, BODY #19, ALONE, COMING SOON, 4BIA. By Thailand’s most talented horror film directors- Banjong Pisanthanakun (Shutter, Alone, 4BIA – In the Middle), Paween Purijitpanya (Body, 4BIA- Tit for Tat), Songyos Sugmakanan (Dorm, Hormones), Parkpoom Wongpoom (Shutter, Alone, 4BIA – Last Fright), and a new director Visute Poolvoralaks the man behind the success of Shutter, Alone, 4BIA, and Coming Soon.

Novice - Fourteen year-old Pey committed a crime, so his mom decides to hide him in a Buddhist monastery to escape punishment. However, something deep down inside is bothering him. Will Pey's Karma catch up with him?

Backpackers - Upon graduation, a young Japanese couple decides to hitchhike around Thailand. They manage to get a ride on a truck, but suspect something strange in the truck's trailer. What exactly is in the back of the truck?

In the End – Four boys are filming an upcoming horror movie. As they are shooting their last scene, one of the actresses dies mysteriously. To finish the film, they have to have her complete her scene, DEAD or NOT.

Salvage – A car dealer makes her living by refurbishing used cars, sometimes with horrific pasts. One night after closing, she discovers her son is missing. Could these cars have memories of their tragic histories?

Ward – A young man is in hospital for a motorcycle accident. He is moved into a room with an old man on life support. When strange things start happening in the middle of the night, he starts to wonder. Is he really alone?

Since i cant online at home i came down to Sunway Carnival Starbucks my usual place to on9 and blog. I just had a big buffet steamboat at Seoul Garden at AutoCity with Yuet Li just now and managed to take some pictures fro the AutoFair. Alot of cars in display but only a numbers which is nice only. But one car that attracts me the most is the car which the whole interior is in LV design. Cool car!! and another car that caught my eyes wud be the car in HOT PINK!!! ok i guess i better upload the pics for viewing better.. hahahha *This car's interior freaking nice, all Lv design.. but fake Lv lar of cuz


*This car damn cun wey~ its myvi but modified till the front looks alike to honda city the older version ones..
*The back. See how the muffler and the sound system is... Damn cool..


* This Honda-City's Rim's caught my eyes and i decided to capture it.. unique and nice.. but i bet its heavy..(wonder will it cause the car to consume alot of oil)

*Banana Car


*This car cool. Kancil


*Altho i duno wad car it this but it's trying to imitate Lambourghini. And frankly its really cool.


*This is a three wheeled motorcycle. Very nice.


*This old car (volkswagon) i think.. Is from the company clarion. Specialize in Audio system. The car oso like one.


*Cool rite.

She was looking at me but i wasnt close enuff to capture her.. LMAO




*Tadaaaaa.... This is one of the car that caught my eyes. HOTPINK and its freaking nice.


* Rmb the car i was talking abt with the interior of LV's. This is the pillow..can't really capture all cars due to time limitation but then the Auto fair this year is abit better than last year's cuz there are more cars tat is AT LEAST nicer to look at. Bt then i did like the car's there. Anyway there is a Miss Mean Machine Pageant competition held tonight to award the beautiful girls (don't really think is dat beautiful excet for a few only ) for the title of Miss Most Sexiest, Miss Most Elegant and Miss Most Cutest. Anyway I am just a simple blogger with my own thoughts. If u feel offended by my blog, probably u shud just leave. HA~
Till then..signing off as PrincessV..

XOXO Love U all