Im back in Penang after a whole week break and vacation with him. Finally i can get my hands on blogging. How was Cny my fellow readers. I certainly had the best one this year. I went to KL with him and his mum n sis. We went on 19th and came bek on the 23rd. Tho we had so little time for shopping but being with him and being able to spend tat little time with him is worth anything and everything i sacrificed for. It was worthwhile loosing a few days of salary rather den not being able to b with him before he leave.. Oh yes, he's goin bek to aussie tmrw. saddddddddzzzzzz.....Yes, im reali sad and din feel like letting go, did wished time wud stop or even turn bek but then i knw he'll b back for me and i will b here waiting.. Well, its onli gonna b abt 9mths more bfre i can see him again wad.. Time wud definately pass so so so so slow without him being here with me.

Now since its lunch time i took this time to blog abit here n thr. Dear if you happen to look at this post here's a few things dat i wud like u to knw..

to b exact we are tgther for 1mth and 24 days now. Days with you are the most happiest time i ever encountered in my 21years of my life. Being so used to ur presence around me for exactly 55days and on the 56th day having to bid u farewell definately is the worst day of my life.. I did expected a day like today ever since i fell for u and i ain't afraid cause i knw u will b back for me. Tho u're still dat lil boy in my heart dat i kenot avoid not being worried abt. Rmb when u're bek thr drink alot alot alot of water since the weather is gona b freaking hot as it's summer.. if u ever fell sick pls go and get some medicine.. Now, i wont b thr to Nag u anymore when u din take those medicine so pls pls pls rmb to take those medicine when ure sick. If u need advice on medicine u can alwiz ask me and i can giv u the name of the medicine suitable for u k? Alwiz bcareful no matter where u go and rmb to finish reading and implement the contents from the book. i'll send u another edition if i happend to spot one.. =) i dun reali know how are u feeling now, are u the same like me or worse.. i juz knw that as the days of u leaving is closer, the more i want to spend those precious with you. Tonight will b the final night that we will b seeing each other physically till 9mth's later. Im starting to miss u so much now eventho u r still here. U made a huge impact in my life the day u walked into my life and its a good thing and a good start to everything for me. Thank you so much for these memorable days u gave me and i know there is more to come.. Take care, study well and definately all the best in aussie..i love u dar, gonna miss u alot bt then i'll b visiting u soon.. =) loveee uuu bubu



from

Bi

Good morning fellow readers.. its the 1st day of Chinese New Year and Love is in the air this CNY as Valentines day fell on the same day. So im here to wish everyone a prosperous CNY to all my readers and may the year of the Tiger brings you and your family loads of good luck, wealth, great health and good omen. As for those couples who will also be celebrating Valentines day, Happie Valentines day to all of you ooo.. Specially i wud like to wish Happie Valentines day to my special someone, my boo my dar.. lub lub.. thank you so much for those flowers and the card u surprised me with which turns out to b a failed suprise. sori i was reali blurr dat time i din knw the card was thr.. =.=!! but this valentines day turns out to be the best one in my life, tho simple but then it comes from your heart which meant alot to me. And im happy to have you thr with me for Valentines day. Another 1week more and i'll b bidding u bye bye.. i have so much mixed up feelings now, sad and happy as well.. I do hope that you will b able to take gud care of urself thr. Bi wont b thr to take care of u like i do over here anymore.. whenever u're sick dun forget to get medi frm pharmacy ok.. u r like a lil kid.. alwiz nit me to worry ard about u.. i think my role is more like a mummy den ur biie.. =.=~ Anyways i'll b strong here and focus on the necessary things i nit to b doin here and so will u when ure thr k.. i wan c gud gud results oooo...

Ok, ennuff crapping d.. i wan go pom pom in a while and ftch mummy to work d.. So to all my fellow readers Have A Blessed Chinese New Year and drink loads of water since u all will b digging in those chinese new year biscuits... Love u all.. Mwakxxxx

i hate it everytime i see you, you wud make me cry and the best thing is you never failed to remind me how much of a failure i was. i asked you to shut up but u wudnt listen.. not until you see me in tears you wouldn't stop.. what have i done to deserve all these.. each day i wud cry myself to sleep. EVERY FREAKING F*****G DAY!!! your mouth works like a tape recorder, you would playback the same words to me everyday till i can even speak out each words you were trying to say. you know how hurtfull those words are to me.. you are not making me stronger instead you are killing me slowly.. PAINFUL~ it really hurts.. i couldnt stop crying even when im writing this. you hurt me so badly that you know i wanted to juz end my life right this moment.. i used to b bubbly, strong and happy.. now i can laugh with others bt cry when im alone. its not easy to put on a mask infront of everyone else, do u know that?... did you even try to understand wad im going thru. you never gave me a chance to explain.. all you ever wanted to say was how bad i am..
i cudnt find anyone else to lean on, i have to alwiz depend and support myself.. you at least still have someone to b with, someone to protect you, someone to back you up.. wad abt me, all i have is you guys and yet u treat me this way..
i never really felt how a real family feels like.. people has a living room where everyone wud snuggle tgther watching movie or probably dinner over at the dining table.. wad abt us, you guys wud eat by urself in the room and i wud eat myself in my room.. once in a while we wud go out and eat tgther.. and when i needed to do some shoppings and sometime i wanted sth you guys wud buy them for me.. bt wad abt the real thing dat i needed, hugs, snuggles, heart to heart talk.. where are all these?? you know how lonely i was while im growing up.. have you ever even asked me 'how was work today' instead of 'work till so late got higher pay meh, bla bla bla bla bla.. useless lar you.. bla bla bla..'

tho you said it when you were frustrated and angry, there are some stuffs which u cud not pull back after u said them. life is not like a time machine wer u can fast fwd and turn back time. YES~ i hate u talking so loudly in public, ITS EMBARRASING, i hate when u cud show ur temper in front of everyone else when u r in a hich class place, THIS MAKES ME LOOKS SO LC, when i softly told you to lower down ur voice n thing like dat u wud say u pek chek lar this n dat n bla bla bla bla again.. WTH!

sometimes i envy those friends around me where thy are so loving. even if tat's juz the surface i still envy them cause they got sth that i dun.. LOve n Understanding..