hey, im back blogging again and the good news is im not going Ipoh anymore cuz i'll be staying here to continue my course instead.. yippieee =) (common let's celebrate, celebrate.. yuhoooo)

Ok, now for my 1st thing that i need to do before 2010. Loose 10kg's. I tell u it ain't gonna be easy u knw.. gaining weight is goin to be a piece of cake but not when u wana loose them. But, i bet with someone to loose by then.. so Be it!!! heheh..




Some of u might wonder y my post title is as wad above is, cause actually i am a shouter myself and its kinda sad to see more and more ppl left shoutout cuz thy no longer thinks its fun anymore. Most of those people that was in shoutout is bloggers themselves. Hehehe, someone did ask me before why i still stayed, its actually very simple, cause i actually feel that shoutout is not like any other common chat room wud be. They feel like a family to me. Shoutout has different shouters from across whole M'sia and not forgetting there are shouters from different countries as well. Well, ever since i became a shouter i did c alot of changes being done here and there, and its goin to be sad to see shoutout to go ( KabOosh!! ) because tak ada traffik.. hahaha

well honestly, because of shoutout i did made alot of friends from different states, different races and different perspective, not to mention different AGE.. for a person like me, i hardly make friends cause mayb people dun reali like me dat much. But shouters dun care who the hell u might be, they juz accept u for who u are.. Altho there are shouters who beh syok here and thr but its doesnt onli happen here lar, outside oso can happen lar.. But i still stayed with shoutout cause i feel happy talking to them..you knw shoutout is no ordinary chatroom, its actually cool for people who likes to interact, but at times i'll just lurk ard and c wad thy're chatting on. thr's PIC's comment oso available now and the current hottest topics in shoutout are GAMES!! Guy's.... haihzzzz!! tho i loves games but then i dun think im dat crazy over them, so tak ngam topic.. hahahaha... but wud love if i can join them in their game.. hahahahah.. looks fun. well!! Sounds fun...


Shoutout has alot of different types of ppl, there are IT genius, fashion freak, emo shouters, photo kaki's and alot alot more.. u name it yourself. But sadly alot of these people no longer has the interest to shout anymore, and thy left one by one. Some cuz found new website d, some working and no time and some other reasons lar.. Still there are shouters that are still there till now. And thy are the active ones..

Well!! i missed alot of the gatherings tho, but due to insufficient members, we cant really organize SOYEG 2009 this year. Sad... =(

Well... whether you have the same opinion about shoutout as me, you be the judge. Honestly, i feel shoutout can be the best group of friends i known. *better ask lasker to organize more gatherings.. hehehe.



(this is a personal post, not advertising purpose...) hehehhehe =) byeeee

Ohhhh Ohhhh
In the heaRt
Of the night
When it's dark
In the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor
Ohhhh Ohhhh

I looked down
And my shirt's turning red
I'm spinning around
Felt her lips on my neck
And her voice in my ear
Like I missed you
want you tonight

Chorus:
Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

Thought I moved
More than on
Thought I could
Fool her charm
I really wanna go
But I can't leave her alone
Ohhhh Ohhhh

Hear the sound
Of a love so loud
I just can't, I just can't
Ignore this feeling
Said she misses me
And she wants me
Wants me tonight

Chorus:
Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

In the heart
Of the night
When its dark
In the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor
Ohhhh Ohhhh

Chorus:
Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

i feel like privatizing my blog.. i feel that i dun really have privacy whenever i blog. I've been having a shit hell of a time, messed up in emotion as well. I don't feel like im someone i used to know. I don't feel happy and i feel like a prisoner in my own world. Friends asked me if i was happy with the way i am now, i pause and was wordless. I don't know how to answer them. The only thing running in my mind till now is, 'AM i HAppy?'.


I've been coming to Starbucks everyday, surfing the net everyday and the only thing i feel im comfortable with is surfing the net and blog. But i couldn't really blog about almost anything cause my blog is a public blog. Last time i did thought of making my blog, well at least famous but now this blog has become more of a personal journal to me.

I actually wanted to live in a world of my own, i feel its more comfortable this way. I haven't been sleeping really well cause i have alot of problems which is troubling me and its only me dat could actually solve this problems. I don't want to tell or being questioned for what is wrong with me as it would stir up my temper.


i dun know wad to doooooo

Am i loosing on Hope or am i loosing on feelings. I can't really made up my mind about certain decisions. I have thoughts that has been bugging me for quite some time already. Or to be certain those kind of feelings that has been kept inside me. Something juz struck my mind moments ago, it was not really some Thing, it was more of a person.

My mind is loosing its patience. . . .

I'm loosing focus, I'm loosing the feelings i once had. Now its a mixed up feelings.

errrr.... my mind is like " . . . . . . . "

im gonna be away from technology world again and most probably wont be here everyday facebooking and 'shouting'... OH my god im gonna miss all these so much... even if i get to be on9 it would oso be like once in a while... =.=!!

anyway, my birthday is just around the corner.. another 1more month to go... i dun reali knw wad's planned out and i dun even knw if i wud b celebrating or not. neway some of my girls did say that its a Bachelorette nite out on my day.. so probably i might be having two different events.. one with family and one just for friends. hehehe... A Fat pig will b flying from Aussie.. so gotta catch up with him And one more gorgeous lady from Sarawak. hahahahahha..

I successfully registered in Clara ady is a packed 1yr LONGGGGgggg course whereby sat and sun's at times its offday, off on some P.H.. But X'mas its definitely OFF.

oh yea, im like so in LUV with this poladroid effects... See how niceeee pics can bcm..


Btw.. CHIN MEI MEI happie 21st birthday. 'dai gor lui lor, yu sang sang seng seng zou yan ooooo'.. Its been like years since we saw each other... i think the last time was back in Disted horrr.. den u left to go Kdu den i oso left to go kayelle.. dats when we all lost contach with each other... Now im bek in penang and u're already moved to JB.. =.=!!!

Neverthe less. i still wish u all the best in ur career, ur studies, family and ur love life.. hehehe Cute bf u got thr.. hahahaha.. But most importantly, food luck in ur future undertakings.. Dun forget when u come bek here Must call me out u knw.. Well im in Ipoh dat time oso.. hahahah.


~gosh i duno wad to write liao, im gonna miss Shoutout the most.. its like 2nd family.. wuwuwu~
when gonna hav gathering like this again.. =.=!!! (LASKER mari bergathering )

today im not really doing any updating. just some random posts that's all. Yup im in starbucks again, drinking my Fav classic chocolate. Taste different from previously method of doing it. Heard from suesan dat wen's uncle juz passed away peacefully after a period of fighting with cancer. I hope that wen will be able to stay strong despite circumstances. Juz like her to knw that everyone is here for her.


sigh~ its so boring. i juz came back from facial treatment as usual in Gurney. Had dinner with parents just now in Tao's and after that lepak in Starbucks for a while. Its goin to rain soon. I also gotta leave because i did not bring my specs out today. So clumsy of me. so now im having a lil blurry vision while driving. so gotta be extra careful.

While i was otw back frm penang to oto CT, a myvi juz HAD to race with me. i did not knw he wanted to race until he actually tried to hit my car (not actually hit juz imitating), so i got furious and chased dat car... we were practically racing till we went on separate ways after reaching B'worth. But my car is safe to race cuz i just got my wheel balanced and alignment done.

P.s : i got scolded by my bf for racing just now... =.=!!!

but then.. racing was kinda fun.. hahahahhahaa.. bt its really dangerous cuz a slip of a finger and u wud have been dead.. So dun race..

at time i just dun understand, with tat kind of height u expect to b voted miss. u gotta b kidding. u might have the sweet innocent looks but u surely aint anyone. Dun pretend to b a miss Congeniality while u have a bad character. Hey if u think u have the brains u shud b doing charity instead of going into pagent and did nth for the charity. Use ur looks to get some funds flowing for the unfortunate, and mayb then ppl will rmb u as someone. U're alwiz competiting in all those ridiculous pagents bt din win anything.. my god!!!