Im bek after a few days missing from blogging.. reason being cuz im buzy coping with my tight schedule.. Plus i am sick at the moment, due to.. well who knw's wad.. it might b stress, or mayb lack of rest or mayb due to the rain i caught the other day.. Lame rite..
I am so dead and freaking tired.. But i reali am very happy these few days.. after a battle of decisions and alot of obstacles.. we are finally together. Good thing is, our anniversary date is the easiest to rmb, 1st.. hahaha.. Well the other day i thought that my NY wish wudn't came true bt then he made it possible for me. Things has been goin smoothly these few days.. He's so sweet to me, altho he teases me as usual.. His mouth are like laser.. tsk tsk* bully me bully me.. hahah.. bt then everytime when he teases me, i never got pissed off instead i laughed and laughed and laughed.. and we both are like cat's and dog's in the office.. and his sis wud b laughing and laughing and laughing juz looking at us both..

A few days before we went for a movie tgther with liang, lynn, min, hsien, houngzai as well as yee chen.. we went to watch the vampire's assistant.. Its not reali a bad movie tho, quite entertaining but not reali those type of movie i would considered reali reali caught my mind. heheh.. bt goin tgther with a bunch of frens, den its a diff story.. I reali had great time and lotsa fun with all of them and especially when he's there.. Good time alwiz fly by fast, and probably in less than two month we will not b seeing each other till end of the year.. I'll then b bz with studies as well and i guess he will oso b the same.. Tho i know i'll reali miss him bt then i still support him no matter wer he might be.. You know, its not reali an easy thing living alone out there where your closest family might b who know's how many hundred thousand km away from u.. I had my own experience living alone outside and to experience wad real life is.. so i understand his feelings being out there.. Tho you might hav frens but then nth compares to those dat you grew up with.

Oh yea, btw.. dun ever go to equatorial hotel's buffet.. it sux to the max and its not worth even a single cents u giv out.. the foods are not hot enuff, the taste are OMG!! i dare not describe.. and so far my experience as food lover and critique.. this is the worst one i had. Even those buffet in a malay wedding taste better than the one i had.. only a few dishes dat are still eatable.. We went tgther with his sis and two frens of theirs, whom i dun know.. haah..

I appreciate those time, every single moments dat i am with him.. He might b at times abit playful but then he treat me reali nice.. i cud juz say that he suits every single points im looking for in a man. He is reali straightfwd.. and i mean really!! but then i rather dat he was dat way than someone who lies without even blinking their eyes.. He's a guy i can reali see a future with.. Who know's how long we might last, who know how long that we are gonna live, mayb we might even die tmrw.. bt then.. i appreciate each and every single second with him.. i will never let myself to have the chance to regret later on..

i know u might b reading this, so this is sth i want u to knw.. sometimes i might not turn out to be someone u alwiz dreamt to have, im not perfect and might never be.. i will still try to b someone prefect for u eventho u never ask for.. thank u so much for all those laughter's and joy dat u brought into my life.. thank you for those warm hugs and words dat u said.. thank you taking care of me and showering me with all the loves i can have.. thank you so much for being thr for me whenever i needed someone and lastly.. i know at times i might b a pain in the butt because of my attitude which is abit rough compared to other girls.. im sorry for that... you know, u touched my heart in many many ways dat you never realized and all those are things dat meant so much to me.. tho its has onli been a few days but then it felt like years to me already.. i want u to rmb this, 也许我什么都没有，但我会吧最好的都给你。i love you Kent Win.. ♥

Well my buddy is bek in Penang today.. can't wait to see her.. hahahha...

Im stuck at home as usual and tmrw i'll b heading down to the island to work d.. packed packed packed schedule frm tmrw onwards.. say bye bye to freedom days.. bt then im reali looking foward to work cuz i feel i've been wasting too much time lazying at home. At least when i work, thr's income dat comes in rite.. tho its not alot but then i gained another new experience plus, i get to see him thr.

Im sitting in my dad's table blogging, and juz finished with L4D game juz now.. Omg!! my pimples is popping out one by one.. die die die.... so sad. will b heading down to penang later to meet Jacky and KW as well..


This image is being taken as a result of too much of 'sien-ness'.. Wahahahaha..... wish me luck tmrw in work, hope things goes well.. luv u all...

i had a display msg in msn previously with the saying 'i am not PERFECT, but i wont stop trying to be ONE'. if u have my msn you wud come across this message of mine. Yesh, i cudn't agree more dat its not easy being PERFECT, or mayb impossible, xcpt u are God. But then its not reali an impossible thing being a PERFECT one for the one you love. Alot of things actually require you to do it with a heart dat is willing, cuz if not.. you might not see any outcome. And thr's nth dat can work if u do things in a hurry. It might juz end in a disaster.

I am someone who can be described as abit kinda boyish attitude, im not a tomboy of cuz, but mayb as in rough in another words.. i love to do alot of stuffs dat mayb a girlie girl wudn't b interested in.. i like extreme sports which i guess not all girls like cuz most girls are either too girlie to b in sweats or mayb thy are plain too afraid of getting dark. =.=!! But yea, i freaking like sweating but then not getting dark of cuz as im quite dark myself now. My strength is kinda more den normal girls wud hav i guess, mayb this is the result cuz i have been in Taekwon-do previously.. Kinda miss it.. hahaha...

ok, so now back to my topic for the day.. being someone perfect for the one u love.
So, guys are people i wud say kinda particular in alot of things.. if u met one b4 u wud knw.. hah. But this is from my observation over the years to wad a guy nowadays wants their partner to be.

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. they prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them. .......dont think so
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking! but do not generalise
13. Guys cry!!!
14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands......yeh rite - watever.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow". ......so true.
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.......very true.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts. ........sumtimes.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!......very true.
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl..
50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed P**** with their girlfriends.....sumtimes depends wen they want sumat.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me"......sumtimes.
59. Guys don't really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him....very important.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and football, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake. ....they love u regardless.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!......true but only wen the guys are ready 2be settled down.
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls
76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed by you or he's criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact. ......sumtimes.
99. Guys love you more than you love them IF they are serious in your relationships.

1. I love my guy to give me respect, understanding, honesty and trust.
2. I love if my guy wud b able to take turns to do the house chores with me, IF we were staying tgther.
3. I love it when my guy adores and appreciate every single things i do for him.
4. I want my man to Love me sincerely and IF its possible, to b the one dat i'll spend the rest of my life with.
5. I adore guys who can cook.. triple marks for them.. hahaha
6. I love a guy who is gentlemen.. ( i found one )
7. I love a guy who is a great listener.. thy dun nit to b someone who is good in giving advice, bt will alwiz b a listener.
   
8. I Love a guy who Loves my parents.
9. I love a guy who can accept me for who i am, treasure me for what i am and love me for who i become.
10. I love it when my man wud b able to include me in his life planner.. in short, he will never fails to include me in the picture, and he will do his very best to provide a good future for the obth of us.

today is the 2nd day of 2010. well, first i thought that my wish wudn't cm true until yst. now, all things had fall into place and the next thing im concentrating on wud b my career. I'll b starting work next week and same goes to my studies. So it will b a whole packed-like-sardines week for me starting Monday.. I still need to find time to continue my facial as well.. and im still trying to find the slot to squeeze it in. sigh~ ok let me make a simple version for u all to c how my schedule wud b starting next week..

from monday-friday ( 9am-6pm) ----work, work,work..$$$
sat & Sun ( 11-6pm ) -------study,study,study..... (=.=)!!!


Ok.. now i can't reali figure out which slot i can squeeze my facial treatment and my sports in.. (=.=).. facial's last appointment wud b at 6 and i cant reali see any time for me to squeeze it in.. nvm.. no worries.. i knw i wud hav time.. sports wud b hangin in the middle as well since its gonna b night most of the time when im free.. xcpt if i go hiking on weekends and after dat go to school straight.. den shud b ok dat way.. haha.. we'll see how.. hahaha

i tried my very best not to think..
i tried not to show how much im hurting inside.
bt then there were times i juz cudnt hide those feelings.
i cried alot.. i laughed alot..
and it was all just because of u...

i don't dare ask for more..
because these moments meant so much to me..
i wudn't wana destroy it..
i rather keep myself in silence...
and enjoy every moment tat im with you..
before the day u walk out of my life for good..

i still rmb those kisses..
i still rmb those laughters..
i still rmb those hugs...
i still rmb those lame jokes..
that we used to share together..

love is pain.. it is not a fun thing to do..
but then i loved the way you love me..
i know how much i needed you..
i know how much i wanted you..
i know how my world wud b without you..

im sorry i was being reckless..
im sorry i was being stupid..
im sorry i was alwiz careless...
im sorry i wasn't understanding enuff..
im sorry for not being PERFECT enuff..
im sorry for all these, but i juz cudn't get u out of my mind..

each day dat passes by..
i hope and wished upon a star..
that one day you will come back to me...
i wish dat we cud b together...
i know i was being selfish for having these thoughts..
LOVE, has alwiz been selfish..

each time when u're with me..
i wished tat time wud juz freeze..
i hope time wud go slower..
so that i cud c u longer...
when its alwiz time to bid farewell...
i alwiz cry inside cause i still haven't had enuff..

im sorry if i ever did anything wrong..
im sorry that i never let u know how i felt..
im sorry for all those silly mistakes that i did..
im sorry that i wasn't the perfect one and might not be..
im sorry that i made u worry..
im sorry for everything...

even writing this i cried alot..
these words juz flow out so smoothly...
mayb its just sth dat alwiz had been in my heart..
i reali tried very hard to let you know..
i tried my very best to show you how much i love u..
i dun care how much pain im in..
i dun care how much tears i shed..
i dun care if i was ever happy...
you know how much i wanted you..


but nothing cud ever compares to how much happiness i felt..
JUST TO C U SMILE...

Its the last day of the year, and in less than 10hours a new year is born. we bid farewell to 2009 and welcome 2010 into the world. Well.. i hope everyone gained alot during 2009, i know i did bt still i do lost some as well..

sigh~
I do hope that i will have a good ending to 2009 and a new fresh happy beginning towards 2010.. i do hope all of u were the same as well.. happy and blessed new year to all my readers. wish u all the best of luck with loads of success and wealth coming ur way. Thank you for being with me throughout my ups and downs. =)

love u all..

2009 is coming to an end now, what hav u all achieved so far within this year. I know that i have achieved some things and lost some things as well.. Well! in life there must b a gain and a loss to make life balanced rite. Well i had let go of all my past and from tomorrow onwards i am a new person. New life, new beginning, new determination, new resolution as well as new Me♥.. I had learn a lot from the past that makes me wiser each day. Altho i am still not perfect and still at times repeat making the same mistakes, bt still non of them were purposely done.. I have had a great whole December with memories dat will lasts a lifetime, a great best buddy to stick by me at all times when i, feeling down, a loving parents and probably you♥.. What more could i ask for? i had almost everything dat a girl wud have wanted. Money is not reali dat important except when it comes to paying bills, daily expenses, feeding ur car with either 95 or 97 ( still prefer 95 cuz its cheaper and it makes no difference frm 97), or mayb when u wanted to buy dat LV bag.. hahaha.. oh mayb money might b important in life as well cuz nth in this world is FREE, for dats wad i know.. hahah... bt money is not important when is comes to happiness, cuz no money cus b able to buy u those priceless happiness.. ppl did told me, happiness is when u buy stuffs u like, yes i do agree on SOME part but not all.. den wad do u think abt this "does money ever buy u those so-called-happiness when u r diagnosed with disease that not even money cud ever cure u, or when u r breaking/divorcing with ur partner dat was caused because of money.. the lists will go on and on and on.. bt im juz lazy to list it down. Well, at times i do have my own financial problems which does give me a pain in the butt, but then i choose to live my life happily knowing tat tmrw might b my last. Well, i appreciate every single moment i had without hesitating doing things i like cause i never wanted to make myself regret when i looked back one day.. The only thing i did regret was not being able to provide a better living for my family. I was rebellious, playful and selfish while i was in my teens. I never ever cared about anyone else other den myself. i used to scold, curse and even steal.. all juz for the fun of grabbing attention. YESH! i am an attention seeker laz time.. i believe some of u who is reading this blog might also or been in my shoes before. But since i had changed, i believe that U can too.. All it needs was some experience and u will learn and grow up in no time.

Now for my brand new year in not more den 48 hours, i do wish dat i had a BF.. hahaha.. well since i knocked so hard on the floor pavement yst, i guess the wire is still kinda loose in my head..
so juz ignore this sentence.

Well, i did wana blog abt how much fun i had with the girls on 25th in Tao. but first and foremost i wud like to thank u all for the lovely prezzie.. i am using it now and i appreciate it vy much. Wad a smart idea of getting me a purse since im gonna b using it eviday, this will reminds me of u all. I do actually hope u all enjoyed the red wine and the night. It was kinda simple cuz i din actually planned out anything.. but i was reali hapi to have u all there. Thank u all for the great bday.

ok im getting more and more heavy while blogging, i wonder was it bcuz i juz had brunch or was it bcuz of the fall yst dat makes my head sot-sot at times. hahah.. well, it roughly abt 2mth's more before you will b leaving me. i wonder till then what is goin to happen.. i dare not think, i dare not ask, i dare not even dream abt it cause im scared. i am enjoying each and every moment i am having right now and its too beautiful if someone were to take it all away.. i duno y hav i fall so hard but then im happy as long as i know you are happy. ur smile is the onli things dat makes me meltzz♥♥♥♥ u might not b dat perfect to others but then i like u juz the way u r. Bear that in mind. You are alwiz perfect juz being urself.

okok here will my New Year resolution be..

1. Achieve a good result in my school and be the best student in whole M'sia to get at least that two title i have been aiming for.
2. Get a Bf, (in the midst) hahahahhaha♥
3. get bek to my ideal figure i had 2 yrs back. ♥
4. Earn more money so that i will be able to at least not worry about my financial.
5. Blog more.. hahahah
6. Do more for myself, Him and my family..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥